Nurse to Soulpreneur: How I Finally Committed to My Calling
The Question That Changed Everything
Have you ever felt torn between the life you’ve built and the life your soul is quietly whispering about? For years, I was a nurse — a steady career, a clear identity, a role everyone around me understood. But under the surface, I was unraveling. Burnout had drained me, and yet the idea of leaving nursing felt terrifying. Who was I without that title? What if I failed at something new? What could I even do? What skills are transferrable? This is the story of how I finally committed to becoming a soulpreneur, the shadows I had to face, and the support that carried me through.
You can find even more on my journey about this topic here: Burned Out & Rebuilding as a Neurodivergent Woman
Wrestling With Burnout and Family Identity
After awhile, burnout wasn’t just about me — it was about my family, too. My oldest son is neurodivergent, and I reached a point where I realized I couldn’t show up for him the way he needed me to while also pouring everything into my job that I resented. I was torn between two loves: the career I had built (rather, the identity I had crafted for myself) and the family I was responsible for.
Ultimately (& obviously), I chose my children. I left nursing and stepped into being a stay-at-home mom. At first, pieces of me felt free — but that’s also when the shadows got louder.
This process is also what drove me to ask myself some clarifying questions – these are the same kinds of clarifying questions I now offer in my free burnout tools. If you’re wondering whether your own burnout is temporary or a call toward something more, I created two free tools to help you reflect: Career Burnout Breakthrough Checklist & Should I Stay or Should I Go? A Burnout Clarity Map for Career Transitions. You’ll find both in my Freebies section.
The Shadows That Showed Up Next
Even though I had “escaped” burnout, I quickly realized leaving my career wasn’t the end of the struggle. Soulpreneur-ship and stay-at-home-motherhood was the beginning of a new layer of shadow work & uncovering my own personal limiting beliefs.
- Fear of failure: What if I tried something new and completely flopped?
- Fear of judgment: What would people think of me now that I wasn’t “achieving” in the traditional sense?
- Imposter syndrome: I second-guessed myself as I tried to homeschool my 3- and 5-year-old boys, constantly feeling unqualified (despite having a Master’s Degree in Education).
- Scarcity mindset: Having to rely financially on my husband triggered deep discomfort, especially as a fiercely independent, rebellious Aquarius.
- Fear of being seen: Sharing my thoughts, energy, and perspective online left me vulnerable in ways that felt both exciting and terrifying. Example: “What if this is too ‘woo’?”
The shift from being a nurse to being “just” at home stripped away my old identity. I had to face who I really was without the title and paycheck to define me. This eventually drove me to have many more enlightening experiences – Ego death. Awakening. Identity collapse. Grief. And in that process, I also built The Ashes Journal – and it helped me write my way through collapse and come out stronger on the other side.
Human Design: A Permission Slip for a Soulpreneur
Everything began to make more sense when I discovered Human Design. Learning I am a Projector reframed so much of what I’d been wrestling with.
As a soulpreneur I understood that my purpose and gift here is not about doing more — it’s about being valued for what I see. My natural role is to guide, tweak, optimize, and offer resonance-based insights that help systems, families, and people function more efficiently.
This clicked in a way that freed me:
- My Aquarian forward-thinking nature suddenly made sense — always wanting to optimize, streamline, and see the big picture.
- My ability to gain higher perspective with clarity isn’t “too much,” it’s my gift.
- My non-emotional frame allows me to see situations clearly without getting pulled into the swirl, making me a natural guide.
- My smaller energetic “battery” wasn’t a flaw — it was a sign I was built for efficiency, not endless output.
Human Design didn’t just give me validation. It gave me a blueprint for permission. Permission to honor my energy, lean into my gifts, and stop trying to force myself into roles that never fit.
Committing to the Soulpreneur Path
With that awareness, I finally said yes. Yes to stepping into entrepreneurship in the realm of energetics, metaphysics, and healing spaces. Yes to guiding, educating, mentoring — but this time from a place of alignment instead of depletion.
This wasn’t about rejecting nursing. It was about expanding beyond it, into the role I was always meant to play: a leader who supports others on their awakening and healing journeys.
Closing Reflection
If you’re standing at that crossroads too — burned out from the career that once defined you, but not yet ready to fully step into what’s calling you — I see you. The fears are real, the shadows are heavy, but the freedom on the other side is worth it.
Your path doesn’t have to look like mine. But if your soul is nudging you toward something bigger, maybe it’s time to listen.
If this post resonates, I’d love to share more with you. You can start with my free Career Burnout Breakthrough Checklist, or the Burnout Clarity Map if you’re asking the big ‘stay or go?’ question. Both are waiting for you in the Freebies section.
Are you curious about your own soul path? Take the quiz to discover your Soul Path Number.
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August 19, 2025
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